It's 6:10 in the morning... I just got finished with my essay. It's five pages long and I got the works cited done and everything. School starts in an hour... And I didn't get to study for my calc tests. *Sigh* I would have died by now if it weren't for that nap I took when I got home. Now I'll probably just pass out when I'm *in* school. Goddamnit Tammy, your really need to stop doing this. Well hey, at least it's Friday. Woo!

*Sigh* It's almost midnight, and I haven't even started on my paper. Well, I started, and by that I mean I typed in the header. Yeah, I don't know what's wrong with me.

Update on my project: My partner in crime and I finally got to do the presentation today. It turned out pretty well considering the fact that we probably horrified everyone with our amazing singing and dancing skills. The teachers said it was good though, so I am happy. Plus, she said that she liked my posters and will put them up in the room so she can refer to them. I feel special. The paper about the Spanish inqusition is due tomorrow and I haven't necessarily started on it. Guess who's gonna be staying up late again tonight?

I wrote this paper for Chinese school last year about "What Chinese book (or book about the Chinese) has had in influence on you?" I wrote about "They Joy Luck Club" and my mom. I got a letter and award yesterday saying that I won something for it. It's funny cause I can't read what it says on the award since it's in Chinese. But I got 40 bucks and I needed money. Hurrah.

It has felt like Friday ever since yesterday. Before I left school today I kept wanting to say "Have a nice weekend," but tis not! I wish it was though, so I could put off work until Sunday night. I am *so* good at doing that.

I have yet another Calculus test to fail tomorrow. Goodie >_<

Anyway, I better go get started on homework since its almost 10 already. Goddamnit I am screwed.

Which Weezer Song are You?

In remembrance of this day last year...

I don't really know what to say or how I feel about what had happened... Ryan, here, pretty much sums everything up...

The Remains of a Day and the Numbers both made me realize just how lucky I am to be alive and to be surrounded my my friends and family (well, not so much family in the physical sense...).

I think I am going to Cenntenial Park tonight, maybe I will see some of you there...

Molly and I ended up not being able to present our oh-so-wonderful project today... ran out of time. Now we will not be able to do it until Thursday, which is a shame because now people will have to wait another two days to be able to experience a fabulous thing.

Me: Damnit, I was looking forward to doing my presentation today...
Friend: Is it crazy like last time's?
Me: Well, I don't know about "crazy", "making a dumbass out of myself", maybe, but probably not "crazy".

Anyway... I tried to do this cardio workout video thing that my mom has, and I realize that I am quite possible the most un-coordinated person in the world. I could keep up with the... actual workout, but not all the fancy shmancy dancey areobic moves that go along with it. I will finally get the steps right, and then they are all, "Okay! Ready to move on..." So I gave up and went to the gym and ran for a while, then I went swimming and fell asleep by the pool. It was a nice little nap.

So I see that Conan reruns are now on Comedy Central, which is wonderful because Conan is hilarious and I never am able to watch him on weeknights. Great line:
"I read today that Baylor University in Texas is building a George W. Bush Presidential Library for their campus. Yeah... see, President Bush will be donating the two books that he's ever read for the library."

I get a free lunch tomorrow. A friend told me that if I help him make a poster for his presentation in Anatomy for Thursday, he will either pay me $5 or lunch at La Paz. And I figure that lunch will be worth more than 5 bucks, especially if I order the most expensive item on the menu...

Guess that's about it all for today, gotta study for a Calc test that I'm going to fail anyway. Life is grand.

So I have a project on the Spanish Inquistion due tomorrow for European History. With referrences to Monty Python, and my partner and I singing the Inquisition Song in front of the whole class, this is bound to be an A+ project. If not, she and I would make complete asses out of ourselves, and failed while doing so. *Sigh* Wish me luck...

Whilst talking to a friend on the phone tonight:

He: Yeah, and so she tol... what are you listening to?
Me: *Turns music down* ...Um... Nothing.
He: Oh my God, are you listening to the Mortal Kombat theme song???
Me: NOO I'm not, I promise!!!
He: YOU ARE TOO!!! YOU FREAK!!!

I then proceeded to bury my head into a mountain of shame.

The Mortal Kombat theme adds to my list of theme songs that I have a tendency to listen to:
-Mighty Mouse
-Ninja Turtles
-Spiderman
-Pepsi (You know, the Britney ones...)
-Smurfs
-Spongebob Squarepants
-Speed Racer
-Doug
-Three Is Company
-Animaniacs
-Underdog
-Mission: Impossible
-Happy Days
-Ren and Stimpy
-Powerpuff Girls
-Sailor Moon
-Carebears
-Chip n' Dale Rescue Rangers
-Rugrats
-Fraggle Rock
-Beverly Hills Cop
-Friends
-Captain Planet
-Inspector Gadget
-Daria
-My Little Pony
-Darkwing Duck
-Pink Panther
-Rocko's Modern Life
-South Park
-Mario Bros.
-Pinky and the Brain
-Fresh Prince
-Samurai X
-Power Rangers

Okay. You see, I got this Power Rangers t-shirt in the little boys' section at Goodwill last week, and of course, if I have the shirt, I need the song, right? That is a prefectly legitimate excuse for having this theme. Now, I am really not sure what to say about the others. Maybe a nostalgia for those good old cartoons? Hrm... All I know is that there are way too many songs on that list. I'm not a dork, I swear.

P.S. Are there any more I should add to my list-o-shame? ^_^

Guilty pleasure: You know, I really, really like Justin's new song, "Like I Love You". It makes me want to dance. That is a terrifying image. Today, I was at K&S (this international market near my church) and they were playing Coco's "Superman". So I coudln't help but just stand there in the mdidle of the aisle and dance. Then someone walked by, saw me, and gave me a really weird look. I think I will give him nightmares tonight. But like I said, Justin's song is fun ^_^ Dirty line: "You will know the difference when I touch you".

I've been working on college applications all night. So I was filling out the part with "Honors, awards, job experience, achievements, extracurricular activities" and so forth, I realized just how much I suck. I had to leave pretty much that entire section blank. =) Anywho, I stumbled upon some interesting things...

California colleges give out wonderful scholarships such as "Jewish orphan studying aeronautical engineering, Grew up on a farm, or child of farmers, Student's ancestors from Pop Yup, China, Blood relative of Mildred L. Muller, General Motors employee, etc... I'm liking this. I ended up applying for 13 different scholarships.

I am filling out the online application for the Texas schools right now, and they made me agree to this statement:
I certify that the information I have provided is complete and correct to the best of my knowledge. I also certify that I have read and understand the 'Important Information about Bacterial Meningitis'. If my application is accepted, I agree to abide by the policies, rules and regulations at any university to which I am admitted. I authorize the university to verify the information I have provided. I further understand that this information will be relied upon by the officials of the university in determining my admission and residence status for tuition purposes and that the submission of false information is grounds for rejection of my application, withdrawal of an offer of acceptance, cancellation of enrollment, and/or disciplinary action. I also authorize the university to electronically access my Texas Academic Skills Program Test results.

I like how we have to certify that I understand Bacteiral Meningitis for a college application.

Just thought that I'd like to share... I'm gonna finish up now cause it's getting late and I have church tomorrow morning. And by morning I mean 2 in the afternoon. ^_^

I wore overalls today. They are super comfy but they are kinda long and drag on the floor. So, I was walking on Hillsboro Pk (a busy, busy road) today to go to a pharmacy to get something and I tripped because they were too long. Thankfully, I did not fall flat on my face, but I could hear at least 3 or 4 people who were driving by laugh. And I was all by myself so I didnt have someone to laugh with at me. A little embarrassing... just a little. But, I probably won't see any of those people in my life again. Then again, it was Hillsboro... And chances are, 1/3 of those people are people I know. *Sigh*

Care for some dirty fun? Help Sammy the Sperm! He will say eyebrow-raising phrases such as, "the wetter the better", and "faster, faster, faster". Fun, indeed.

Comments are back up... I know you are just *dying* to say something ^_~

So it's been a while. And I think I'm feeling better... overall. But that's mainly because I've been keeping myself busy doing stuff and going out. Not sitting and sulking around at home. So I guess that's a good thing. Then again, I could just be avoiding and pushing aside what I don't want to think about and then it's gonna come back one day and hit me really hard. But we'll see if that happens.

I take it as many of you don't really know what went down to cause such unhappy previous posts. And.. well, Boy that I've dated for over a year and a half and I broke up. It was an unexpected thing, but was mutual. Sorta. It was pretty much about college and that whole ordeal. I still love him more than anything though, and I feel kinda, well... rejected. So it's been pretty rough, but... I'm dealing. Like I said, I've been keeping busy to avoid thinking about it. And it's been working pretty well recently. So I guess I'm okay for now. Just hope that I can stay this way...

I went bowling tonight. I have not been bowling in about 3 years. And I used to always refuse to bowl because the last time I did, my fingers got stuck in the holes and it hurt a lot. Plus, I bowled like, a 21. That is an embarassing record low. But tonight I went with 5 other girls who all weren't that great at bowling either, so we all just goofed off a lot and laughed at each other. I also saw a girl who I used to be best friends with in 3rd and 4th grade, and exchanged phone numbers. Most embarassing part of the night: at 10, all of the lights were turned off, and the blacklights were turned on ("Cosmic Bowling"). And at first we thought it looked really neat because all of the white colored clothes were all glowey. Then I looked down at my clothes and quickly became horrified. My bra was undeniably glowing through my shirt. You see, the shirt I was wearing was kinda see-through, but you can't tell under normal lighting. However, once the blacklights were turned on, the white bra was brightly shining through. I ended up borrowing a sweater from my friend, but then I was terribly hot and my armpits were itchy. Nonetheless, I had a good time. It was fun. And I bowled a 93 (which, by the way, was not the lowest score of the night).

Let's see... what other stuff has happened... Oh yeah, we *finally* got our senior lunch back. Oooh yeah. One hour, off campus lunch. Everyday. So of course, we are all going to be doing this for about a week, then we realize that we have become broke and cannot afford to eat out anymore. But we won't think about that as of now. I'm just glad that I have the option of leaving school for an hour and do whatever I want. So. All is well. ^_^

Oh yeah, I almost forgot (like I did last week) the Friday Five:
1. What is your biggest pet peeve? Why? There's a few but I think the biggest one would be stupid people. The kind of people that when they say something, you think, "Why do you ever open your mouth? How are you allowed to speak?" Thankfully, there aren't too many of those people in my classes. I also hate it when people are ignorant and close-minded.

2. What irritating habits do you have? Oh goodness, where would I begin? Let's see... I burp and blow them at people, I bite my fingernails, I drool when I sleep, I take the stickers off of fruit and stick them on my sink, I can be over-sarcastic, I whine a lot, I cry a lot, I eat a lot, I tend to randomly break out into song and dance (either "Baby Got Back" or "Mr. Sandman" or the "Three's Company" theme), and I say "like" and "you know" too much, like, you know? I'm sure there a a million more that people find annoying. Tell me? So I can try unsuccessfully to correct them?

3. Have you tried to change the irritating habits or just let them be? Yes, I've tried. But nothing usually good comes from it. I apologize!

4. What grosses you out more than anything else? Why? There are lots of things people do that gross me out. But some of them are just plain funny, such as farting. People who eat poop are kinda gross. Umm... People who smoke disgusts me. Well, not the people themselves, but just the whole idea of smoking. It's unattrative, unsexy, it smells bad, and it's killing you. Blech. Oh, and I gross me out a lot as well.

5. What one thing can you never see yourself doing that other people do? Hrm... like I said, smoking. Ummm... I'm not really sure what else. I usually would like to try everything once. So... Yeah.

My mom gave me this long lecture when I got home from bowling about how the foods that I eat now will kill me. She gave me this long list of things that I should do to prevent from getting heart disease and all that good stuff. Here are some of the stuff that she told me to do:
*Don't eat fruits that are seedless. No seedless grapes? I'm sorry, but I am too fucking lazy to eat grapes with seeds in them.
*Don't drink pure water, mineral water is better. What the hell? It's WATER.
*For all of your meals, half of it should be cooked, the other hafl should be uncooked.
*Fasting is good for your body, do it once a week. Hell no. I love food too much.

She told me some other ones but I had already zoned out thinking about a peanut butter fudge milkshake from Sonic. Those things are absolutely amazing. I told my mom that life is too short to try to eat non-tasty foods. We're all gonna die someday, so why not enjoy all of the yummy foods in life, right? Plus, I'm acutally exercising now, so it can't be *that* bad.

Someone searched for "penis size rating" and ended up here. Hrm... Don't have much to say about that.

Anyway, I should end this mammoth of a post. I also need to go on to bed because my friend and I are going out to breakfast at 8:15 in the morning. Yay Waffle House!! I will leave you all with the other part of the "I love you Kitty": Singing Kitty #2. This one gives me the willies.

Song that describes how I am feeling perfectly as of now: Jay Chou - Typhoon. I cried today listening to this... Granted, if you don't know Chinese, you would have no idea what this song is about, and might think it's about the weather. But alas, child! It is not.