Back at the beginning of summer, Jason and I had plans on buying a house once his apartment's lease was up in September. Unfortunately, all that was put on hiatus when no teaching jobs became available in Metro over the last few months. It's been slightly stressful and discouraging.

Okay... very stressful and discouraging.

I try not to show it, and instead, remain as positive and optimistic as possible, but I had to come to terms with what may be a very possible reality. I think we could have gotten by on my crappy retail salary plus whatever shitty job he would get, but we'd definitely be running on a tight budget and probably be eating one too many ramen packets (which, is freaking delicious, mind you). But with the kind of lifestyle Jason and I have grown accustomed to... all the eating out, and the going out, and whatever outs there are, it was going to be a hard transition into the "staying-ins". Plus, Jason loves new video games and gadgets, and I like clothes and girly shit - all that would have to stop as well.

Bye-bye, house. Bye-bye, video games, Bye-bye pretty clothes.

Needless to say... discouraging.

I know Jason and I are blessed in so many ways, but sometimes it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I worked my ass off at Juicy over the last year, and when a promotion/raise was due... I saw neither. When I thought I had another job in the bag, that also fell through. Same goes for Jason - my poor boy hardly ever gets what he deserves. He doesn't get to see his son enough, he can't find a job that's even remotely worthy of his intelligence, and he has kind of a dick of a father that likes to remind him of everything he's done wrong. It's just one thing after another.

So I'm not really sure if God was just feeling extra generous recently, because just in the last week, I was promoted in my store, plus I got that raise I so desperately needed, and Jason got re-hired by Metro. Maybe things are looking up, after all.