Thursday, November 28, 2002

Happy Thanksgiving. Eat lots of turkey. I love you all. ^_^

Tuesday, November 26, 2002

I'm in Austin right now. My brother lives in a city called Pflugerville (pronounced Flu-ger-ville). It's been a pretty fun day. Out of 6 of my classes, 4 of them had substitute teachers, so we did basically nothing all day. The flight here was pretty rough though. I sat right next to the engine so it was loud as hell and I couldn't sleep too well. Once we got here, we went to this awesome Chinese food restaurant. Mmm... Yum. Then, I got bubble tea. Awwwww yeeeeah. It was passion fruit green tea with bubbles in it. Mmmm... I've been wanting one of those ever since I got back from Taiwan.

My brother's house is cute. I like it a lot. He has a huge flat screen TV, and we played some shooting games. I realize that I have the worst aim, ever. It's amazing just how bad I am. Terence has cute animals too. His two cats are a bit on the obese side, and his dog is really hyper active. But cute, nonetheless.

I go visit the UT Austin campus tomorrow. I shall update you all on how that goes. Until then, have a great night =)

Monday, November 25, 2002

I am leaving early from school tomorrow to go to Austin, Texas to visit my bro. What? Yeah, I have a brother. No, really, I do. I'm not just making him up.

Anyway. It should be fun. I plan on eating lots of good Chinese food. Nashville Chinese food just isn't all that great... C'mon you guys, back me up here. I'm also excited to see my brother's pets. Sad, isn't it? I love his animals... Him? Not so much ^_~

I hope you all have a super Thanksgiving holiday. Eat lots of yummy food, be lazy, get fat. But! Don't forget to be grateful for all that you've got and that you are actually able to eat lots of yummy food, be lazy, and get fat.

Oh, and if you see her, tell her, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CARLA!!!

Sunday, November 24, 2002

It's been a thorougly fun weekend. I went to see a Randy Newman concert on Friday and My Big Fat Greek Wedding last night. Both were really really good, and I like. Today at church, the youth/college group had to do a skit from the Bible that relates to being thankful. We laughed a lot because we looked really dumb. All the fun came to a halt when I had to work on a Jane Eyre project, again. I hated this book. And now I hate it even more because of all of the bullshit critism and handouts we have to do. This feminism crap sucks. I mean, yay women, but quit complaining. (Please don't shoot me.)

Oh, and I got my license too. About damned time, huh? I realized that people are happier that I got it now than they probably would have been if I got my license when I was 16. "YES! I don't have to drive your ass everywhere now." Next step: get a car.

Alright. I'm finishing up and then going to bed listening to these horsies sing. Toodles.

Friday, November 22, 2002

LOST

What: 2 light blue queen sized pillow cases; t-shirt material; may be full of candy
Last seen: October 31, 2002 - Halloween night - Carried around by two females, ages 18


If you find my two adorable pillow cases, or even one, please contact me. I need them or else I will not be able to sleep well at night.

Thank you.

Tomorrow is senior 80's day. I'm actually going to dress up... not because I have any school spirit, but because I can wear obnoxious clothing for a legitimately good reason. My friend and I said that we should have a spirit day once a week, every week. You know, so I can dress ridiculously and still be okay. Anyway. I'm gonna go to bed now so I can wake up early tomorrow to put on my awesome, awesome outfit and look so damn hot.

But before I do, I will leave you with some sick humor that I'm sure you all with enjoy. It's from Esther, so don't blame me if you are completely disgusted.

Tuesday, November 19, 2002

Today has been a sad day. A member of our church and a very close friend of our family died this morning. It wasn't really something unexpected because her health has been failing ever since the doctors discovered a malignant brain tumor less than a year ago. My mom saw her yesterday and told me that she's slipping in and out of consciousness, and it won't be long until she will pass away. She asked me last night if I would like to go visit her today but I told her I couldn't. I couldn't go and look at death in the face, it was too hard. It's weird thinking about it. We knew that she did not have very much time left but it was hard fo rme to believe that this was the same woman who just last year was on the stage hosting a Christmas show, dancing and laughing and singing. A woman who was so full of life and loved every moment of it.

I've questioned my faith numerous of times before, and this is no doubt another time where I'm questioning it again. How can a "merciful" God take a woman who was so devoted to her family, and to church, and to just... life? How can He take a caring mother away from her two children at a time when they need her most? Why her? What is His justification in doing something like this? How does He determine who gets to live and who gets to die? I mean, why not me? Or some asshole who doesn't deserve to live?

I know that there is a reason for everything that happens, but it's hard to see what that reason is until a few, or many years down the road. It's hard to see how things fit into that whole "big picture" but it's hard to deal with the present without any answers. It was hard watching her come to church every Sunday weaker than the week before until she did not have the strength to come anymore. Yet, what touched me most was her faith in God and whatever He had in store for her. She remained so dedicated at a time where I probably would have given up all hope if I was in her place.

I'm not sure how I feel right now. Sad, angry, frustrated, confused? I don't know. I do know that she was an amazing person whom we all loved and will all miss immensely.

"For what is it to die,
But to stand in the sun and melt into the wind?
And when the Earth has claimed our limbs,
Then we shall truly dance."
--Kahlil Gibran

Monday, November 18, 2002

Off of my friend's away message:

Calculus and alcohol don't mix. Don't drink and derive.

Sunday, November 17, 2002

*Sigh* It's going to be another long night.

I have to make a study guide for a huge Euro History test we have on Tuesday. Then I gotta work on a college essay for the UNC application because I am trying to get all my stuff turned in by Tuesday. I promise that I didn't procrastinate on that application. I didn't think that I was gonna be able to turn everything in for early action because my counselor and teacher were not finished with my recommendations, but UNC extended their early action deadline. And I didn't know that until two days ago. So hopefully I can get everything done by... well, tonight. This is not good.

For those of you who are dying to know where else I'm applying, here goes:

UC Los Angeles
UC Santa Barbara
Furman
UT Knoxville
University of Georgia
Wake Forest
Brown
NYU
George Washington U.
Rhodes
Washington U. in St. Louis
UT Austin
Boston University

Yeah yeah, I know that's a lot. A whole lot. And trust me, I wish I could narrow it down to just 5 or 6, and maybe I will once I visit some of them. But until then, my mom's gonna have to pay loads of money for application fees. I have my reasons for choosing so many as of now though, mind you.

God. What am I thinking applying to all of these places? My friend tonight was all, "Haha wouldn't it be funny if you didn't get into any of those places except for UT Knoxville?" That is quite possible my biggest nightmare at the moment. Not that UTK is a bad place... or anything, just... I don't want to go there. It's my backup college. Sad part is, that nightmare has a high chance of coming true.

*Sigh* This is going to be a long night.

Saturday, November 16, 2002

I am wearing my kitty ears right now and looking all sexy and kittylicious. Only... not. Meow? Love me?

Helpful tips from my boyfriend:

David: Learn to type, dokr.

Oh, I love you. =)

Friday, November 15, 2002

Today has been a total bullshit day. And those are the best. I loved it when my calculus teacher flipped out because some of us were talking while he was teaching, and then gave us a butt load of homework. Ahh...

Oh, and here's the answer to why cats like to eat earwax... Mmm... Ear... Wax...

This little game here is a lot of fun even though I have no idea what the hell you are supposed to do. Kills time efficiently =)

One last thing: HI LAUREN!!! I LOVE YOU!
I have 4 readers now. Yay!

I'm in my English teacher's room right now debating on whether or not I should risk running to my locker to get my calculus book without a note to do so. Huh. I'm reading a poster with a poem on it on her door. I'm kinda liking it.

Open it.
Go ahead, it won't bite.
Well... maybe a little.
More a nip, like. A tingle.
It's pleasurable, really.
You see, it keeps on opening.
You may fall in.
Sure, it's hard to get started;
remember learning to use
knife and fork? Dig in:
you'll never reach bottom.
It's not like it's the end of the world -
just the world as you think
you know it.

Speaking of poems, I remember one that I read in 9th grade when I was doing a poetry project. I forgot who it was by...

Premature Ejaculation

This poem is already finished.


Hah.

There was a group of Japanese people who came to visit our school yesterday. I told my friend to go up to them and bow and say "konitchiwa". But she said no and told me to do it. But I was afraid that they might start talking Japanese to me and I would be all, "Wasabi?" And they would be disappointed and hate Nashville. Anyway... I'm gonna try to find something better to do to kill time...

Wednesday, November 13, 2002

I hurt. Bad. Physically, I have not felt this shitty in a very long time. Someone shoot me in the face to put me out of my misery.

Tuesday, November 12, 2002

Tammy's favorite love song of the moment: Bruce Springsteen - Secret Garden.

She'll let you in her house
If you come knockin' late at night
She'll let you in her mind
If the words you say are right
If you pay the price
She'll let you deep inside
But there's a secret garden she hides

She'll let you in her car
To go drivin' 'round
She'll let you into the parts of herself
That'll bring you down
She'll let you in her heart
If you got a hammer and a vise
But into her secret garden, don't think twice

You've gone a million miles
How far'd you get
To that place where you can't remember
And you can't forget

She'll lead you down a path
There'll be tenderness in the air
She'll let you come just far enough
So you know she's really there
She'll look at you and smile
And her eyes will say
She's got a secret garden
Where everything you want
Where everything you need
Will always stay
A million miles away

*Sigh*...

Uh oh. Tammy's getting back into Disney songs again. The Aladdin soundtrack is *so* good. =)

I didn't do anything today after I got home from school. Well, I took a nap. Then I woke up to make some food ~ fried rice, cookies, and iced tea. I also watched Cruel Intentions and Joe and the Volcano. I plan on doing more of nothing for the rest of the night because I'm so damn good at it.

I'm really getting into some Scott Joplin stuff... you know, the guy who wrote The Entertainer. I like piano music... Try "Cascades". My friend learned how to play that song in a week during the summer just from listening to the MP3. I will be eternally impressed.

I'm been in a good mood all day ~ not sure why. I guess those are the best kind of days, huh? We nominated for senior superlatives today at school. A couple of my friends told me that they nominated me for Most Academic. I wanted to barf. If they only knew just how much work I really put into school related stuff. =) Personally, I was going for Most School Spirit cause you know... Yay, go team?

Vrroooom vrrooom I'm a racecar. Racecar is racecar backwards. ^_^ I'm gonna go mope around some more now. Byebye.

Sunday, November 10, 2002

I finished my second hat today. I like it. And it fits my fat head too! That's an achievement in itself.

Um... not much has happened today except my hands still smell like play-doh. We were making stuff in Bible study earlier. Wow... Warm orange juice tastes unbelieveably bad.

Call me crazy, but I really really like Jennifer Lopez's new song, Jenny from the Block.

So the Love Calculator calculated that love between me and Boy is 79%. Yes! We rock! I think. We're gonna have to work on that missing 21% though, don't we? ^_~ Speaking of calculators, my mom calls them "Calculus Computers". I think that's a much better word for it.

Alrighty folks, I think I'm gonna go to bed soon because I'm already tired. I don't know what has happened to me. Freshman through junior year I was so used to staying up until 2 or 3 in the morning. Freshman year I would talk on the phone with people for ungodly amounts of hours, sophomore year I had nothing better to do, and junior year I had a lot of school work. This year, I'm just sleepy all the time. Well, unless I've had 5 Dr. Peppers and lots of candy. I really need to build up my stamina again. Anyway~ no school tomorrow! Ahh... the joys of going to a public school. =) Nighty night.

Friday, November 8, 2002

Yes! Friday Five on time! *Claps*

1. Did you vote in your last elections? No.

2. Do you know who your elected representatives are? Yes. Damn Republicans... ^_~

3. Have you ever contacted an elected representative? If so, what was it about? No.

4. Have you ever participated in a demonstration? No.

5. Have you ever volunteered in an election? What was the result? No.

Mmm. Short and sweet.

Rocky Horror was great... funny stuff. We saw a girl who graduated from our school last year in it so that was pretty neat. We were tempted to get all decked out and go as WHORES, but we decided against it. Which was a good thing because we would probably be the only ones who dressed up aside from the actors. We went to a party afterwards but it sucked. Lots of um... private school people, if you catch my drift. Here's a quick breakdown of what it was like:

Them: "TAMMY!! HEY!! Ohmygod I haven't seen you in *such* a long time!! How have you been?!"
Me: "Hey (Why are you talking to me you never talked to me before when I was at the same school as you)! I've been really good (now that I left that hellhole of a school)!"
Them: Cool...
Me: Yeah...
Them: ...
Me: ... Yeah, so I'm about to go. See you soon (by soon I mean hopefully never again)!

Alright. I'm going to bed, kids. I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow. G'night.

Thursday, November 7, 2002

I realized today that I've had this blog for over a year and a half. That's quite a while... in that amount of time I could have had two babies already! ^_^

My life has been pretty dull lately, so I do not have much to say. That will probably all change tomorrow night. I am going to watch the Rocky Horror Show at TPAC with a friend. Hopefully, we will see lots of freaks and transvestites. Hopefully, they will not eat us alive.

I was thinking of dressing up as a transvestite myself but my friend told me that I wouldn't need a costume to go as a transvestite. I told her to stop being such a ho-bag.

I really need to clean my room because it's disgusting. I know it's about time to clean it out when I forget what color my carpet is. The Mom is actually being pretty cool about it~ She doesn't get on my case about keeping it clean all the time like she used to. She's actually been pretty cool about everything recently... I used to have to whine and bribe her to let me go out on the weekends but now she doesn't really care anymore. Well, not as much anyway. Good Mommy. *Pat pat*

All I have to eat for dinner are a cookie and Halloween candy. And not even the good Halloween candy, because I already ate all the good stuff. I'm left with that crappy crap that people still like to give out every year such as Whatjamacallits, Mounds, Bit-O-Honeys, Almond Joys, and those mysterious chewy candies wrapped in black or orange paper with no writing. Why do they even bother with those now? We throw them away once we get home anyway. *Sigh* People never learn.

Alright, I think it's time for me to start on homework. I have yet another Calculus test to fail tomorrow. Farewell my little minions.

"Watashiwa ho... HO!!!"

Wednesday, November 6, 2002

I'm talking to Carly on the phone right now and she burped. I gave her a 8.9.

Way to go, Grossy. =)

Good news: I found my college folder...

Well, you didn't hear the bad news, did you? Yeah. I couldn't find my college folder anywhere yesterday. Now, you may not think that much can fit into a small little half-inch binder... but oh ho, you are greatly mistaken. All of my college applications, recommendations, resumes, scholarship information, calendar of deadlines, essays, everything was in there. Hours of time and dedication was put into organizing and get stuff filled out and written for that folder. So basically, if I did not find that folder, I was fucked. While I am usually a messy and clumsy person, I do not lose precious things such as my college binder. I take it out, and put it right back into my backpack when I am done. So you would understand my alarm and frenzy when I was unable to find it.

I told myself that if I couldn't find it, I would just not go to college.

Thankfully, I found it in the office I work at 5th period. Someone had put it high up on a shelf, but I found it anyway after coming close to having a mental breakdown. Everything was still in there like I had left it. I don't know why anyone would want to steal anything from it, but you wouldn't believe what some people at our school would steal... So yay! I'm going to college!

That is... if I get in.

I finished making my hat earlier today. I used this blue/green yarn that's pretty soft and warm. It's really cute. I even made a little fluff ball and put it on top... everything turned out just perfect..

Now, I'm going to try to make one that will actually fit my big fat meat head instead of the head of a 6 month old baby.

Tuesday, November 5, 2002

Quick and brief update:

*It's been too damn cold here. Winter is arriving. I hate it with a passion.
*I went to see my school's production of Midsummer Night's Dream tonight. It was really good.
*I am learning how to knit a hat. So far so good.
*I fail miserably at Calculus.
*I am absolutely exhauted right now, but I still have some homework left to do.
*My room is a disgusting mess.
*I am reading Ender's Shadow and it's great. I'm loving it as much as I loved Ender's Game
*I get my pictures back tomorrow from Halloween.
*Christmas break needs to be here already.

Sunday, November 3, 2002

"And the dragon comes in the NnnniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiGGGGGHHHHHHHH"

Oh, I love you Strong Bad.

Jug jigga jug jigga jug jigga jug jigga JAH JAH
Jjiggidy jug jigga jug jigga jug jigga JAH JAAAAH

Other favorite quotes:
"Your computer has too much computer in it and not enough typewriter."
"Reach down inside and pull something out... not like...organs."
"Are you a robot? And if so, do you have any powers? Do you use them for good, or for awesome?"
"Close the book and quit being such a DORK-ON!!!"
"What? No. No. No. I mean, No. No. What? No."
"Maybe I was looking at a bird... or a cloud. Or a cloud that looked like a bird... You know, a bird-cloud."
"Too much of a good thing is an awesome thing. But too much of an awesome thing is... umm... really, really dumb and bad."
"THE FUTURE IS YOU... probably."
"Somebody get my hands off my butt."
"Number A, you don't have to shout. Do you know how many internet etiquette laws you are breaking by typing in all caps like that? Well... you're only breaking one. Don't type in caps."
"A One that is not cold, is scarcely a One at all... The Property of Ones: The ONEitude is directly proportional to the COLDitude of the One."
"Smells like peanut action."
"Actually, I don't really know anything about the ladies either. I mean, I do! I mean - WHGT! JGTH! YES I'M AWESOME!"
"One hand would have a bucket on it. That way... I'll always... have... a bucket. You know for... dumping oatmeal on stuff..."
"Chinese food... you a ghost?"

I just spent my Sunday night looking at all of the Strong Bad e-mails... There are almost 50 of them. Yay. I have no life. [Thanks, Eric, for showing this to me in the first place. You rule.]

I created a band and named it Foo Foo. They are so friken cool. Here's how it goes: Adam~ 2nd circle, FunkyPaul~ 3rd circle, Amy~ 4th circle, Emily ~4th circle, and Kristi~ 5th circle. You can substitue Emily for Marc on the 3rd circle. I'm going to start my own band now... I'm gonna be a masta on the triangle =)

So uh, make your own band.

[Link from: Ben]

I will leave you all with some words of wisdom: "Ew! What is this on my camera lens? Not on the lens lens, but on the lens part lens."

Saturday, November 2, 2002

Once again, the Saturday Five:

1. Were you raised in a particular religious faith? Yes ~ Christianity.

2. Do you still practice that faith? Why or why not? I do. But I have certain issues with it now. And I kind of believe in... my own religion, if that makes any sense. There's a lot of things that my church preaches and the Bible says that I don't agree with. I believe that there is a God, and I believe that there is a God's will. But I think faith should be based on my own personal relationship with Him, and not on all of that denominational bullshit.

3. What do you think happens after death? I'm really not sure. I'd like to believe that there's a Heaven. But you can't have a Heaven without a Hell... but sometimes it's hard for me to believe that God would condemn so many people to Hell... so I don't know. I guess we'll find out.

4. What is your favorite religious ritual (participating in or just observing)? Does Christmas count? ^_~

5. Do you believe people are basically good? For the most part. But sometimes I think everyone sucks.

Psycogyrrl: my friends are such prunes
SooshiMooshi: are they wrinkley?
Psycogyrrl: they stink
Psycogyrrl: and theyre purple too
SooshiMooshi: yeah...
SooshiMooshi: and they make you poop?
Psycogyrrl: ya poop in my pants cause when i get mad i strain myself...
Psycogyrrl: like uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh
Psycogyrrl: ya theres the poop
SooshiMooshi: whenever you are constipated, just hang out with your friends?
Psycogyrrl: SHEA!
SooshiMooshi: you dont need ex-lax. thats what friends are for
Psycogyrrl: for good times, for pooping times, ill be on your side forever more

Problem solved. =)

So I figured out what Heaven would look like today. I got my Flojos shoe catalogue in the mail. A bazillion different types of shoes jammed into 12 beautifully colored pages... Yum. =)

Friday, November 1, 2002

504 Boys featuring Mercedes - "I Can Tell" is a wonderfully funny song.

Do not ask why I was listening 504 Boyz in the first place. Don't question anything. ^_^

Yay. Did everyone have a great Halloween? Or did you forget that it was even Halloween until 11:30 like someone I know... *ahem*

I went trick-or-treating last night with about 7 other girls. I dressed up as a dead prom queen. I took lipstick and smeared it down my face but then it looked as though I had a serious make-out session, so I took some black eyeshadow and smeared it around my eyes. I also took some fake blood and put it on my wrists. Then we all went to a nice subdivision to pushed rich kids down and run off with their candy.

At around 7:30 we left to go to my friend's farm out in the middle of nowhere and got there around 9. It was pitch black and of course, we got stupid ideas stuck in our heads and freaked each other out. At midnight we all hiked up to a conferderate soldier cemetary. It wasn't as scary as it could have been if only 3 people went, but there were about 11 of us, so it wasn't that bad, despite the occasional moments of "Shh... Did you hear that?" It was kinda creepy because as we were hiking up the little mountain, it was really windy and you could hear some birds. But when we were at the graveyard, everything was perfectly silent and still. The wind wasn't blowing or anything.

Lizzy: Umm.... someone check to see if there's anything behind us...
Me: *Slowly turn my head to glance back" We're good. We're good.
Heather: How do you know? You can't see anything!
All: *Whine*

After about 20 minutes, we quickly left the cemetary and headed back to the cabin where we told each other scary and funny stories, and goofed off until about 3:30 in the morning. We all pretty much passed out by 4, but we were all up by 8 in the morning, so none of us got very much sleep.

I got home at about 2:30ish and fell asleep until 7:30. I was supposed to go watch a play at much school tonight, but I overslept. Oopsie. >_<

I get to take the SATs yet again tomorrow morning. Don't plan on studying this time, not that I did any other time. Standardized tests can suck my butt. Bee-otch!! Oh! Guess what else I get to do tomorrow? Driver's Ed, baby. HAHAHAohmygodI'mpathetic. *Sigh* I hate me.